To Learn or Not to Learn (Part I)
I was pretty sure that I wasn’t cut out to teach, but due to the fact that most of what Thais hire are teachers. I gave in into the clamors of the people around me (although I really am not comfortable in talking a lot).
I already got the feeling that I’m going to mess up, but I still dared to try. Just to give everybody else the satisfaction of granting their wishes.
So, after attending a humiliating teaching seminar, this ends up to be nothing but just a bit of showing casing all the competent and the incompetent applicants of the University.
I was able to get my certificate, garnering an average rate (if I remember it right). I wasn’t chosen to be among the best, but it didn’t matter much to me. I was actually even so ecstatic about it because I can finally get to rest from all those who’s been bugging me to try teaching.
However, considering that I came here to help my wife. I volunteered on a Filipino Language School in Bangkok and tried teaching 3 subjects from Grades 1 to High School. I taught Social Studies, Arts & Computer and Music. Although all my employer can give me was just enough for my fare back and forth for every week. What I did was rewarding for me.
Then one day while my kids and I were on our way home from Bangkok, my phone rang and on the other end of the line was one of the in-charge from the University. He asked me if I can at least substitute for at least 3 weeks while they are still looking for the right person to replace the teacher who left his post.
Anyhow, to make the whole short story shorter, I reported the following week on the school I’ve been assigned to. I wasn’t really hoping to teach at that particular day since I haven’t got a single idea on what to teach the students anyway.
So, I asked a couple of times to one of my Filipina friends who happened to be teaching at the same school. I asked what am I going to teach the students, she just reassure me that I can teach anything.
Only to find out that later on the evaluators from the University will be observing me as to how I teach.
Do I need to tell you as to what happened next?
Well, as expected it didn’t went well. And one of the Thai evaluators talked to me in a soft speaking voice and told me what I was expecting to hear.
Then she said top me “MAI PEN RAI” (meaning never mind or don’t worry) it’s oky since it is your first day.
Yep, indeed it was my first and worst day of my teaching career. It was then and there that I was able to prove to myself that I can never be a teacher.